Today, I stayed in library after class to do assignment, seriously it makes people so damn tired. He didn’t lunch with me because he had no class in this morning, so I hang out to having my lunch with Cindy, Vincent and Yong. The class after he used is our turn, so I met him outside and so I inform him later who I will going to do with. After finis our class, we went to computer lab to print our lecture note for next day, and he saw we seem talk like very fun, so he just called me and then go away. When I want go out to find him, he already lost. After that, I met him at library, but then when I want go find him, he lost again. As what I remember is how the feeling is my bf keep avoid me again! I do really don’t like it. He message told me that he gets angry when he saw me quite close conversation with other boy. Besides that, did he know how much I wish to hugs him tight that time? But, he had never listen my explain just gets angry and goes home. Kiro suddenly message me after that, but I just inform him that I need to do assignment in library and have no time to chat with. But, I will find him after I get homes, he asked me a stupid question that he actually know in somewhere else. Who knows he want to chase me back. Who is the first person said that won’t get back together with ex girlfriend? Who is the one makes thing become like this? That’s you! Don’t you know I feel crying and how sad am I after read it? But I know I was getting more angrier. After I know I just been together with you but is under other girl shadow to you and my tears will feel want to drop is also because you make me disappointed badly. I had asked myself do you really love me in that moment when I being with? You told me you used to treat me that cold before is because I treat you like how she treat as, you don’t know what to do. Don’t you know it all already not that so important to me? Yea, it might be very important to me for that time, but yet now already going pasted by two month, it’s over and it is also because you realize it too late. In 18 month we spend with each, it still not enough time to realize and awake who is the one who actually you want to be with? How much hurt I gets is more than you and for sure! Yes, it might not suppose to be but it is the truth. I hurt you many time with the small thing and you hurt me many time with the deeply thing. You not only broke my heart and also the confidence you gain into my heart. Besides that, I do think if I choose to be with you again, how’s my life would be? Will you still treat me that cold? Will still need me to spend my time just wait to see you or wait your message to inform me? Yea, we be together in a long time for both of us, but in that moment for you it is not me, the one you want to be with is not me and actually you not really know what I want or how I feel. In this time, I do hope you really know what I want for now. I used a long time to think should I leave or stay to wait you, but yet I choose to leave you because I know what kind of people I wants is already gone. I’ve think before if got one day you come and chase me back, might I will accept it. Unfortunate, we’re ungodly to be with. I’m sorry that my love already fall to another one that love me more than I love him and so take care me, and now I willing to be with him and love him more too, he’s my only one for now and might for eternal.